Most days, it would be okay. Just today it really isn’t. Honestly, it’s kinda suck and I’m sick and tired of all this thing!

Seriously. FML!

Searching for myself

Guess this is the only place where I can say whatever I want and how I actually feel because I guess this blog is dead by now.

What is happening to me?! Where is the "old" Leonard who used to be hardworking. Can I have him back here? Because I really do not wish to do badly for my Common Test and any other exams or should I say in my Poly life.

I tried to forced myself into studying, but somehow it seems that whatever that I'm trying to study does not seems to get into my head. If this goes on, the consequences would be dire. Definitely!

This semester, I had 4 modules and all these modules are freaking hard to understand and the lecturer that teaches us also does not really bother about us. To them pass or fail is not their business, so long they do their jobs, it's okay.

Why do I have such a difficult path to go through?! Sometimes I just envy others because everything or most of the things in their lives went smoothly and me? Everything was a rocky path ever since I was young and now, it has been same. Be it in terms of studies or whatever things that I owned. Everything.. everything would surely goes something wrong. I used to think that this path would soon be gone and a new beginning would arrive but I guess what I was thinking was just a dream.

Seriously, I do not know how long can I withstand this. I'm on the verge of breaking down and sometimes I feel like dying and I really hoped that I could survive this through. If not, I seriously can't imagine how am I going to handle this.

Ahhhhh! How I wish now I could find someone to talk.. just anyone.. But I guess this ain't gonna happen.