Pessimistic? Deteriorating? Tired?

I don't know what is happening to me these days. My level of concentration has dropped drastically and no matter how hard I tried to pay attention during class, I just couldn't get whatever information into my freaking head. It felt like my brain is deteriorating and it's getting worse. Assignment start streaming in and now, I'm having trouble writing my report. Struggling to complete within the dateline is hell hard. What is happening?!

Every time I opened my assignment, I just could not concentrate or focus in completing it. There's just something.. which I do not know what it was that kept me from focusing. It's very frustrating! There are currently 2 assignments that are going on and both assignments requires me to submit on week 6 which is next week and how is the progress coming? Both less than 30% done. Depressing isn't it? Less than half of the semester have gone passed and this is happening to me. All I just want is to get pass this final semester and get on with life, is that so much to ask for?

Sure, there are bound to have difficulty and obstacles that one must go through before getting the sweetness of success. But to me, this is a little too much for me to handle. I guess I'm just a weakling.In the past, whenever I faced with problems, I tried my best to overcome it and eventually, I managed to get pass it and moved on to life. But this time, I don't know why but I do not have the motivation or the energy to do so. I guess I'm tired. Tired of suffering, tired of facing obstacles, and tired of fighting it.

Sometimes I wonder, why bad things happened to me? Why can't for once, just once, things would go smoothly for me. I really don't know how to endure it anymore.