Who was I kidding?

I can’t do this. I’m not as strong as I use to be. I’m no where near as strong as I thought I would be.
I just need a new start, a clean slate. I want to go to a place, a place were people don’t have preconceived ideas or expectations of me yet. 


Somewhere where I can feel the sun and embrace life. But lately, I’ve had a feeling that this place doesn’t exist.. but I know it does, somewhere..

I will find this place, I’m determined too, and when I do I will leave. Get away from here because I just can’t do it anymore. I just want to run away and hide from all this and continue to be indenial because i refuse to believe that this is all happening.